Thursday, September 20, 2007!
what i truly want in life has become increasingly blur nowadays. i hate to admit this to myself, but i am getting increasingly unsure of whether i am heading towards the right direction or not. university is the start of our pursuit towards our dreams - wait, how do you define dreams again? must i only pursue practical dreams?
if i have the liberty to dream, what do i want to be? i posed this question to my friends and ended up being much more troubled than all of them combined. so many different hopes and dreams resurfaced - but none of them even hint of pracmatism.
many times i ask myself - why the heck am i in university? just to show that i can study? just to secure a good job in the future? or even just to fulfill society's expectations?
i lack the courage to pursue what i want. i am afraid to waste years trying and trying but end up failing and worse still - broke.
but what if this is not what i want? what if i end up wasting years in a job which i dont enjoy, and look back in dismay at time not well spent.
worries worries worries.
8:45 AM
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