Sunday, September 09, 2007!
to:
you who will make me think that love is worth loving
hello love,
whenever i am in a strolling mood, especially those evenings when the wind blows kisses onto your face and surroundings become a blur - those times make me think of you.
and then i wonder about this silhouette in my mind. what is he doing now? where is he? and then i smile, because perhaps you had just walked past me and we in silliness had been nonchalent. and then i cant help but look around...ah, silly me.
hmmm, how do i say this, but, i miss you. i know, its silly to miss someone whom you dont even know. i mean, it sure sounds ridiculous to love and miss a silhouette. someone whom i cant put a face too. but its just that in certain moments i miss you intensely. especially in moments of great joy, where i wish i have your ear to shout into, while in moments of dispair - where i yearn for your shoulder to cry on.
who are you? i often wonder to myself. my curiousity is only partially sadated with the hope that you are worth the waiting for. but sometimes in dispair (well, not too often),i would hopelessly wonder if all i am waiting for is nothingness. maybe the sihouette in my mind is just my own silly illusion...
hopefully one day you'll get to read this, and maybe(if i dare hope!)at this moment when you are reading this i'll be sitting beside you and we'll be laughing at this together. this is me - at moments where i cast all cynism aside and believe that the love of my life truly exists.
and i hope till the day you read this, this will still be me - the me you fell in love with.
till then, this remains a dream to be stowed aside with childhood fairytales,
an unanswered prayer.
yours always,
Ruth
8:57 AM
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