Friday, September 28, 2007!
hey dad, mom (seen as 1 entity):
there are just so many things that i wish to say to you but lack the courage to. which is why, like a wimp i am writing this all down here, knowing that you'll never see this.
first and foremost, i love you. alot. even though many times i may seem nonchalant to all that you have done - please be assured that i am not. its just that sometimes i find it so hard to express my gratitute and love. i do try sometimes, but often the guilt of not being a good enough daughter stops me from saying more.
i never want to disappoint you. i try my best to make you as proud of me as possible even though recently it seems that these instances are getting rare. but please try to understand that sometimes i try so hard that when i look back, i realised that some things that i do are done simply to prove that i am worthy to be your daughter. but dont worry, its not your fault. its just me getting too competitive with myself.
i know things are not easy at home with our financial situation not being as before. many times i want to apologise for not being your pillar of support and also for not contributing enough. i am sorry, dad and mom. i am really really really sorry. i dont know how else more to say this.
i know that you are weary. this is a guilt that will always burden me until the day i can lift your burdens from your shoulders. please patiently wait for that day because other than this promise, together with my love, i am at lost with what else to do.
i hope you will always know that i love you. alot.
11:00 PM
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