Friday, August 31, 2007!
i have this overwhelming sense of being left behind.
time is running ahead of me.
and i fear that i do not want to catch up.
i want to stall, look back and join the past.
walk down corridors with the old and familiar,
i want to;
laugh like idiots with christine - give disgusted faces at her toilet jokes then joining her later,
hold rhoda's hands as we stride down corridors - which later progressed to striding through shopping malls,
hug charlene in joy, sadness or fear - listening to each other as we admit our inner most secrets and flaws.
go to meimei's house to watch movie after movie , seeing a look of disgust and shock on her face at our ignorance towards her oldies.
all this i miss. surely and slowly, i miss.
i really. miss.
time is running ahead of me.
and i fear that i do not want to catch up.
i want to stall, look back and join the past.
walk down corridors with the old and familiar,
i want to;
laugh like idiots with christine - give disgusted faces at her toilet jokes then joining her later,
hold rhoda's hands as we stride down corridors - which later progressed to striding through shopping malls,
hug charlene in joy, sadness or fear - listening to each other as we admit our inner most secrets and flaws.
go to meimei's house to watch movie after movie , seeing a look of disgust and shock on her face at our ignorance towards her oldies.
all this i miss. surely and slowly, i miss.
i really. miss.
5:59 AM
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