Monday, February 05, 2007!
dear vangie,
have you arrived in Manila safely?
i'm sorry i couldnt say much in the airport because i really didnt know what to tell u.
i didnt want to face saying 'goodbye' to you.
until now i still cant believe that u left. watching you leave felt too surreal and unrealistic.
u left.
i am still shocked by the reality. and i realised that all these while i have been deceiving myself.
reaching home was worse.
your absence was a presence in the house.
we all felt it.
and we felt terribly hollow and crippled without u.
so i decided to sleep time away.
but time crept by and you are still not here.
then i thought of all the times when i took your presence for granted.
i thought that u will always be here. i thought that u will always be HERE.
i really miss u alot.
i miss the times where u yell at me for not making my bed, for not collecting my clothes, for making a huge mess in my cardboard, for singing too loudly in the bath.
i miss the times where u teased me about my countless flaws and mistakes.
i miss the times when i teased u.
i miss the times when u sang loudly along with your cheapo market CDs. even when i was mugging away in the next room.
i miss the times when u nagged at me for not having dinner at home, for losing my spectacles yet again, for forgetting to close the windows when it rains
i miss the times when u laughed
i miss the times when u comforted and made my fears seem so small
i miss the times when u taught me to appreciate the little things in life, the things which u didnt have in the past.
i miss u.
love, Ruth
11:36 PM
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