Thursday, September 28, 2006!
here's a typical conversation between my maid and i:
setting: Vangie cleaning the fish tank, me sitting on the couch reading
silas marnerruth: are you afraid of death?
vangie: nah, everyone has to go through it what.
ruth: you're not afraid just because everyone has to go through it?
vangie: - long pause- when i die, i want to be buried striaght away. so there is no need for any operation or chemicals to be injected into my body just to preserve it for a few days.
ruth: how long does it take for a human body to decompose?
vangie: i donno. one to two days maybe.
ruth: like meat.
"man's life is as cheap as beasts." -King Lear, William shakespeare.-------------
with exams aside, i find it easier to enjoy literature. once again i rediscover the reason why i decided to take the road less taken- to study ARTS, or more specifically, Literature.
its quite astonishing to see how writers put our inner most complicated, illogical thoughts to words.
for instance, i can truly feel Silas's desolation, loneliness and helplessness when he first moved to Raveloe, after his faith in both God and man have been cruelly distroyed. Because that's what i know i'll feel if i am suddenly and harshly pushed away from everything that i believe in, and more specifically, my religion.
i finally realised how important my Faith is to me, and how integrated into my life it is. because it IS me.
yes, i definitely emphatise with Silas and at the same time, pray that something like that never ever happens to me. cos unlike Silas, i've deeply afraid that i'll turn to something much more harmful than a spinning wheel.
10:12 PM
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