Monday, October 17, 2005!
haha i have been on a hiatus for soooo long! hahaha. wonder why?
cause i have been utterly immersed in KOREAN DRAMAS!
I'M STILL NOT DONE YET!! :) woo hoo. :)
yadayada dont reprimand me yet. there is still PW and Council that is taking up the rest of my life too. :)
post promos is busier than during promos. at least during tt time i get to go home early and rest. okok. but on the emotional side it is easier to handle now. :) no more anxiety.
wait. i stand corrected.
today is senior's farewell. i've always thought that as a councillor i would get to participate in it but unfortunately, no. i feel that there is this incomplete end to thing. like i didnt get to say bye properly. didnt get to take photos. didnt get to give hugs. it just ended. while i'm in class.
i mean all my life i didnt give 2 cents worth to seniors farewell but this year is starkly different. these people mean so much to me.
its so difficult to express. my stressball is getting out of shape this very moment.
there is anguish. sadness. happines. i dont ever want them to leave earlier. my life in NJ would be so different without them around and i dont want to embrace such a change. no more stead and shifu in the grandstand in the morning. no more michelle shrieking my name. no more j2 maldivians to say 'hi' to in school. the thought of it is excruciating. its painfully sad.
shifu said that "there is no feast in the world that wouldnt come to an end". how true. the harsh reality of life. how i loathe it. no matter how good and beautiful something is, it will end.
but thankfully, it ends beautifully.
i am going to miss them so much. they have made Nj so beautiful for me and i am really grateful. thanks for making me love NJ, and thanks for making me look forward to school everyday. thanks for lighting up my life with your brilliant smiles, thanks for the words of encouragement that is my source of moltivation.
but most importantly,
thank you for the friendship.
thankyou stead and shifu for all the encouragements, care and concern. thanks for being such great pals these past 7 months. if going to maldives just means knowing the both of you, it is definitely worth it. because friends like u guys are 2 in a gazillion. :)
thankyou choir seniors for letting me know what is the greatest cca in Nj. letting me experience the true joy in being in a true choir.
thankyou council seniors for the guidance.
thankyou dearest OGLS (sam, yux, vince, youkai, emmi). u made me love nj. without u guys, i wouldnt have been here.
thankyou MALDIVIANS. all 9 of you. my life is incomplete without that valuable trip and most importantly, the friendships. :)
this had been a brilliant year. thank you so much seniors.
love, Ruth
7:55 AM
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