Thursday, September 08, 2005!
i look to my feet and see a fading moonima-slipper mark.
thats the last of what i physically have to remind me of the trip to Maldives. and its fading. yes, for beauty purpose i ought to be glad that the ugly stripes are disappearing, but, i really do not want them to fade off. once they fade of, which is in a matter of time, the only physical memory i have of Maldives will be in my mind. and sometimes we just cant trust our minds.
everything happened exactly 6 months ago. 10 march.
half a year and everything is still as vividly printed in my mind.
its not about CIP points. its about what truly matters. its about the people.
then i realise that i can trust something else- the friendships formed.
then i look to my arm and see a burn scar. i got the scar when we were selling fried ice cream together. all thanks to the splattering oil. :) and i am glad for the scar. it will never fade. just like the friendships formed.
never have the scars in my life signify something so important and valuable before. and for once, it doesnt represent bitter lessons to learn, but instead, sweet memories.
then i look to the pictures and smile. not one with me posing properly. all taken spontaneously with a goofy grin hanging from ear to ear. that was true bliss- totally carefree. these are the only photos that i can trust. these photos hold no forced smiles, no hidden agenda.
then i look to my old t-shirts and smile. they mean so much that i could not bear to leave them in Maldives. they are in my drawer, but in my mind, they are drying by the healthpost, moving as the wind passes.
then i look to the diary i kept in Maldives and smile at all the little details that i noted. and laughed at all the senseless bimbotic comments we scribbled when we were choking in Sri Lanka airport.
then i watch the video clip of us together in Maldives and i am assured.
i really was there.
even though it seems too good to be true.
love,
Ruth
9:18 AM
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