Thursday, August 11, 2005!
yay a01 celebrated my bday along with ginny's today. :) the cake so beautiful n delicious la. :) i love a01! :)
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today is a mixture of good and bad..
the first thing tt happened to me this morning is tt my throat hurt like crazy and my head was whirling. i didnt want to go gm in this state but my body just walked out of the house. there was this magnetic pull or smthing... hmm. so i walked into lt2 with a horrific expression of pain, fatigue and sickness. :/
line of the day: " man, i feel miserable!!"
hmmm... pisstine is very sick too. is this telepathy? as in scientifically proven? or is it more psychological? i found out tt she was sick yesterday, and so my body broke down too? hmmm.... this is strange.
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i didnt see stead and shifu today. pisstine is sick. for once, laughter was not lingering around me. maybe tt made the day less tolerable... i just trudged thru the day.
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on my way home, jiali dear called and told me the horrific news that my proposal for the painting of the walls in nj was disapproved by mrs cheng. i was devastated. i mean all these times after she gave us false hope! i was angry. yah. thats the word: angry. i expected it to happen i suppose. imean this is nj after all. but i am just so mighty disappointed at the rigid admin system. for an instant i felt as if i lost the drive in me. imean, IDEAS try and try so darn hard this year just to make a difference. i mean look at the amount of proposals we handed in to the teachers! the amt of meetings we have! WE TRY AND TRY. but nothing is produced. NOTHING. no reconition, nothing. zip. the school sees no result. they hold on to it for so long...then reject it.
i want to mourn. mourn at the dream lost. but for jiali i will stand up and fight. for council.
love, Ruth
5:44 AM
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