Thursday, August 25, 2005!
sigh. am going through a rough patch of my life now.
feeling really exhausted and stressed.
i hate who i am now.
the tired, exhausted, grumpy ruth.
the un-ruth ruth.
i want to be someone better.
someone who is a joy to others. someone who can juggle everything and still be happy. someone who is stonger, tougher.
someone that is answerable to everyone.
but i just am not.
my character is questioned. my commitments are questioned.
i dont like to be disliked.
i so badly want to have an outlet.
but i cant bear to burden others.
i will carry this burden until it ceases one day.
love, Ruth
6:58 AM
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