Friday, August 12, 2005!
i'm sick again today. just felt like vomiting the entire day, especially during PE. :/
i dont understand. i just had a looong national day holiday, why am i so exhausted? i dont know. there's just no drive for me to go school. i wake up every morning wanting to pon school. sigh, this is bad. i love NJ, but i just cant pinpoint on whats the problem. :/
these days i have been in one of those trances where i look back to the past and reminise. orientation 1, a02, maldives... i want them back. desperately. orientation 1 was so memorable. our 5 amazing OGLs. the wonderful A02 which made me look forward to school everyday. the powerful bond in that amazing class just make me so happy everyday. and whenever i am despondent, there will always be people to make me laugh or to give me an encouraging hug. a02, i miss you so desperately.
i just watched the CNA videoclip on maldives again. memories just flooded back. the beautiful kudafari nights, the tricoloured sea, the vast sea of fine sand, the numerous shells, but most importantly, the friendships fostered. the 50kg bags of cement. the tattered gloves. transporting sand from the beach to the worksite. digging a huge hole. shovelling. human chains. singing while we slog on. getting sunburnt. playing with the kids. soccer matches with the kidafarians. playing in the beaches. island hopping. eating fishes on leaves. swimming. picking shells like MAD (stares at richard). trading shells. ranking NJ guys. talking late into the night. scandals. friendships. memories.
love, Ruth
3:54 AM
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