Friday, August 05, 2005!
HELLO!! haha i very high now coz listening to JERRY YAN!! :) haha. HOT!
anyways, thanks lucy! thanks for the lovely present and the lovely 11pm call. haha. sheets i cant believe u caught me by surprise again. :) thanks! also thanks to maomi who msged me AFTER my bday. wahaha! :) Thanks chiewyee, amy and jaslyn for the lovely earrings! and guanny for the lovely gummy bears! and of course FIONA POH SHIEN for the lovely earrings n bracelet. thanks guys! :) today still feels like my bday :) whaha.
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was talking to mr leong just now about sapphire scholars. yup, he had to interrogate me before he decides whether to recommend me or not. so typical mr leong la. haha. yup so he was talking about all the universities..and i realised how LITTLE i know of them...how my perspective for my future prospects was so SHALLOW. buddy and i were shocked at how little we knew... and i realised how shallow my thoughts for my future are. sigh. its high time i start planning..
was talking to Sam and cheryl from 04a02. yupp that kinda got me stressed up too as they were talking about the future than seemed so blur to me.
i mean..overseas? huh?
honestly, i was shocked at how many pple want to go overseas to study. then i realised that yah i am in NJC. i mean REALLY. culture shock. haha.
what do i want in life? what do i want to do? where do i want to go?
i dont want to step out of my comfort zone.
gosh..what comes after JC life?
i dont know.
.sigh.
i want to get into sapphire scholars..but my chances are so slim. :/ well i will just pray and let God do the rest. :)
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i need to have a goal in life. i have to have an aim.
love, Ruth
6:44 AM
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