Thursday, March 31, 2005!
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today: 4.5/5 stars
reason: i had 11 hours of sleep yesterday.
so sleep DOES make a difference!! =D
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it started off with a BAD sorethroat. then came fever. then came laziness, telling Ruth to miss school. enter SISTER and MAID. enter nagging. Ruth trudges to school. Late.
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speaking of late, i didnt get caught for being late although i was all ready to surrender my student pass! a big HUH?!..but i shall not question small favours given from above. =D
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noting the end of something special always makes me treasure it more. yet i feel as if i am not doing enough to REALLY cling on to it. i want to remember everything..i want to MEMORISE every single detail...every single second of us being together. something absolutely special and precious had happened to me...and might be leaving me.. and as much as i want to, i dont seem to be stretching every precious second to be with a02. i just seem to be watching my life change, with a broken heart, and then continue looking on helplessly.
i wished i was a fighter. fighters dont just sigh n give up...fighters fight for their own happiness..they write petitions and wouldnt rest until they get what they want.
but now...all i feel is dejected..and i cant seem to muster up any energy or enthusiaism to fight for what i want. everything seems to b of no use. i feel pessimistic about our efforts.
everything is sealed tomorrow. a02--the reason why i appealed back in...might be split up...
a02. how i wish it will be a reality, not a memory.
5:42 AM
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